Whining for Wine at a Wedding

Last night I went to Kevin's cousins wedding. The location was gorgeous. It was right on the water and the weather was beautiful with a nice ocean breeze. The ceremony was lovely and I even got a little weepy. Something about a woman in a wedding dress brings tears to my eyes, and I had never even met this lady before!


Probably the biggest plus to the whole evening was that I got to hang out with my pal Lindsey all night (shout out girl!). I haven't seen her since the last day of school - I can't believe it - so we had lots to catch up on. It was also cool that another fellow pregnant lady was at our table. She was having her second, so it was nice to be able to chat with her and ask for some of her expertise. And then she said something that rang more and more true as the night went on:


"These things are always hard when you can't drink."


Amen sister. Now, most of you readers know me pretty well, so you know that I am not an alcoholic but I love my vino. Last night, I have never wanted wine more in my entire life. Even just a sip. Anything. I even went so far as to smell Kevin's French red. It was like I had never smelled anything sweeter. See without that warm and fuzzy blanket of a wine buzz, my dancing inhibitions were not lowered enough for me to really cut loose - that and the dance floor was crooked and I had on huge heels. I tried dancing but it started to look like that scene in Titanic and the boat splits in two. I also kept feeling self-conscious that after everything I ate, my tummy was growing to enormous sizes. However, the ice cream bar they had set up was totally worth it. 


I was watching the bridesmaids party it up and I started to wonder if that ship has sailed for me. And then I watched the mother of the cutest toddler I have ever seen in my life and couldn't wipe the smile off my face. I guess I just felt kind of stuck in pregnancy limbo.


And please don't misunderstand - I am overjoyed at becoming a mother. It's just that the transition period is not all the sunshine and rainbows that I thought. It can be pretty confusing at times.