Patience is a Virtue...

that I am still trying to cultivate. I will give myself credit and say I've definitely gotten more patient over the years, especially with the help of yoga and meditation, but some days even that doesn't help. That's pretty ironic since I was in dire need of patience today while teaching yoga. 


The unfortunate fact about the camp job is not everyone wants to do yoga. It's not like my classes at the YMCA where kids sign up specifically for yoga. Still, the last few weeks everyone had been having a good time it seemed, but I had one group today that was quite a challenge. It wasn't a group I see normally which is probably part of it. There's a block of time for "electives" so some kids end up with me even if they did not "elect" to do so. I understand that, but I totally lost my cool, and to one child in particular. My patience had just been run into the ground. Rudeness and disrespect are so difficult to tolerate, and this kid was downright rude to me. Maybe I'm just used to a school situation where the students are usually very respectful. It was just a very frustrating situation, and of course because it's me, I spent hours feeling bad about my reaction and berated myself for not being patient enough. 


When I got home I gave myself some quiet meditation time and feel a lot better. I know I cannot be perfect, but it will always be a struggle for me to jump over that hurdle and tell myself that it's okay. I look at myself as a "recovering perfectionist" and sometimes I just need to take it one day at a time.